Chantix Day 19, Quit Day -1

All righty -- let's try this again.

I'm quitting tomorrow. Monday, August 20th. That's my drop-dead Quit Date, and I feel much more prepared to face it this time around.

For one thing, I have cut back on smoking so much that I smoked less than a third of a pack of cigarettes today. And the last cigarette? Just twenty minutes ago? Tasted like crud with a fine layer of ick frosting on top. Now, this is what I'm talkin' about!

I have made lists of things to do instead of smoking tomorrow if I should have a craving. The funny thing is -- I smoke in the car. I'm a huuuuge car smoker. Yes, even though my beloved Prius doesn't have an ashtray or a lighter, I just smoke, smoke, smoke, and smoke some more every time I'm in the car.

Usually.

For the last three days, I haven't smoked in my car. And it's not like I'm keeping myself from it. I took my cigarettes and lighter with me, same as usual, but I just totally forgot to smoke while driving all over town. It didn't matter where I was going or what I was thinking -- I just plain forgot to smoke. Friday night, when I realized, "Hey, I haven't smoked in the car," I could have lit up then -- but I didn't. I just drove through the thought without lighting up.

Weird!

And cool. I have to admit, yes, I find it cool.

I was really nervous about Monday until sometime this evening when I realized, "No, I really am ready to try quitting again. I have already cut down this much. I already don't smoke in the car. I really do think I can do this."

So the test is tomorrow. I don't know if I'll be blogging a lot about it, but I think I'm actually looking forward to quitting. Again. I mean, for the first time. I mean -- for the first time, I'm looking forward to quitting again. Does that make more sense? OK! Let's do this!

G'bye, Capri Menthol 120's! Hello, money!